Wednesday, February 27

脑袋感觉很浆糊

英国作家
Samuel Butler说

所有人类的作品
包括文学、艺术、美术、建筑以及除此之外一切
都是作者的自画像

那最近的我
岂不是一个双眼布满血丝
憔悴苍白的老人家?
就像濒临枯萎的残花
奄奄一息地舍不得闭上眼
仿佛依旧眷恋尘世盛开的色彩

之前所想的
为了让自己不留憾
为了在我眼里伟大的梦想
我必须为自己付出比别人多倍的心力
因此我决定收服堕落的懒散
再用不懈装备自己
整装待发
接下来得跟着哪条路
也要好好规划
以免一启程就迷失方向
迷路了找得到出路
还可以继续昂首阔步
找不到出口号啕大哭
这样真的很糗很丢人
我要发挥小红帽精神
即使险恶的大灰狼随时出没
我仍能悠闲自得地哼着小调

大选快到了
到处都是招摇的宣传板
装饰点缀抑或有碍市容
见仁见智
拉票板上的字眼
一句比一句尖锐
雨后春笋的面板
也建得一个比一个大
一个比一个立得还高
赢了没奖品的宣传板比赛
他们也能如此不遗余力
不知其他人看了
会不会和我一样
嘴角抿起一闪即逝的弧度
轻轻的不经意的

选民的眼晶亮
心里明白透彻
手中的一票值得投给谁

明年我就二十一了
是合格选民
只差没登记
不过却没有那份投票的热忱
就当我是不尽责
懒得执行自己义务的公民吧

遥遥
钱真得很重要
感觉她语气感慨
无可否认
钱固然十分重要
不过自古至今
前路钱路
志气骨气
似乎两者不能兼得
鱼与熊掌
你会挑哪个?

再怎么高照的艳阳天
始终会漂着迷蒙细雨
一阵一阵的季节性的
雨丝就像针一样
不留情地扎着大地
狠狠地一针见血

所幸
如今太阳高挂
昨夜夜里肆虐的雨丝
早已随着第一线晨曦蒸发了

即使话少了
我依旧
活在阳光
蓬勃温暖

Sunday, February 24

能不能

很想
放空一下
庸碌繁嚣太久了
沾满尘埃的它需要洗涤滋养

很想
离开一会儿
体会各地的风情万种
再回来适应阔别已久的熟悉

很想
一个人出走
全新的旅程刺激的充斥
再回家适应这份恬逸与舒适

很想
让你听一听
聆听我内心的澎湃声
让你听懂我想要的浪花海风

很想
什么也不做
静静沉溺在音符里
我需要片刻的清漪不受外扰

很想
阖上双眼
我得睡一觉补一补眠
击退外侵恶徒统统弃甲投降

很想
随心所欲
不用牺牲太多的脑细胞思考
只要感觉时间对了
我能把心捧上跟你体验漂泊

很想
一切都成真
即使世界残酷冷血
我选择再次相信遗失的信仰

把留了很久的指甲剪短了
墨在表层的人造被洗去了
指甲太长太不透澈
挡住了我望着双脚着地的画面
我需要
脚踏实地的安定
却也渴望着
浪迹他方的视野

Thursday, February 21

Know me

*ehem ehem* clear my throat before i start talking..

well, i was.. TAGGED again! but this will be quite different. it's because, thru this, you guys will get to know me better than ever!

excited and impatient to wait? here goes..

I

When you got tagged, you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!

Those Who DunnitLimadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
ChinneeqDora-zooropazoo
BabyshernFarah
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmyhana ni mo naiLindoshSlebetcepoterh
UmmYdayana
ELLE LIZA~
Scarlet Kiss
Sycosuchitra
woobee
Burgers for Breakfast
Constantly * Changing
Metamorphosis
Sin Yee
EmiLio (finally..)

II

First name - yeng nee. a strange name for you? or name myself as EmiLio, can i?
Nickname - oh.. it's so embarrassing to name it out here.. well, MOST of my frens call my AH MU. i prefer you guys to call me nee. sound closer, yea..
Name you wish you had - i like my name, so yeng nee is my dream name. ahahaha!
What do people normally mistake your name as - yen nee, yen ni and the list goes on. some pronounce my name wrongly, 艳‘尼’instead of 艳妮, spot the difference?
Birthday – 10th of March.. it's approaching so you know what to do *wink*
Birthplace - Miri, the little place where they insist to call a CITY
Time of Birth - when the sun is glowing proudly, i dont know what the exact time is
Single or taken – single
Zodiac sign - pisces, people say pisces-es are romantic and dreamy. agree?

Your Appearance

How tall are you – can i keep it as my secret? my height makes me feel tiny. haha! well, i am just one and a half 1-metre rulers. haha!
Wish you were taller – of course! 160 will be perfect.. i wont ask for more. haha!
Eye color – brown? or black? i am not so sure..
Eye color you want – na.. nowadays we can change our eye color easily.. coloured contact lenses!
Natural Hair color - a bit brown.. not as black as an asian's hair should be
Current Hair color – too brown, perhaps i should try wine-red next time
Short or long hair – consider as long e..
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – never, i am not that brave
Curly,Straight,Wavy - curly, artificially
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – something dramatic? you mean dying and curling up my hair?
Glasses or contacts – currently still wearing glasses, although some say my spec spoil my look
Do you wear make-up – only during concert and prom nite. well, i think i dont look that scary e.. no offense though!
Ever had hair extensions – certainly a NO
Paint your nails – yes! i often do that! i love pampering myself by buying different colours of nail colours.. it's a pleasure!

In the opposite gender

What color eyes - hmm.. any can do, i think..
What color hair – brown? or black? as long as it's not too unacceptable..
Shy or Outgoing – outgoing, of course!
Looks or personality – personality certainly comes before look! my mum always tells me, 'aha! dont judge a book by its cover!'
Sexy or Cute – can i have both? haha!
Serious or Fun – FUN
Older or Younger than you – as long as he is not too young or not too old (did i answer this question?)
A turn on – a sunny bright smile. i love boys with sunshine on their faces all the time
A turn off – picking his nose in front of me? oh ya.. dont SPIT in front me!

This or that

Flowers or Chocolate – i am a chocolate lover! flowers are nice to see but chocolates are sweeter :)
Pepsi or Coke - coke, though it's not healthy
Rap or Rock – no ideas..
Relationship or One night stand – relationship is much more stable, isnt it?
School or Work – school! i love being around with those funny dudes!
Love or Money – i am a typical pisces so what do you think i will choose?
Movies or Music - music, though i know nothing about music. perhaps movies arent that bad too..
Country or City – country? but i will miss the hustle and bustle in the city, for sure
Sunny or Rainy days – i love sunshine boys so i will certainly prefer sunny days! getting darker? no worries.. i hav my sunblock!
Friends or Family – family comes 1st..

Have you ever

Lied - ya, i admit. who never lies anyway?
Stolen something – yes.. stole someone's heart?
Smoked – no.. i dont like and cant stand the 'scent'
Hurt someone close to you – yes
Broke someones heart – another yes. am i too cruel?
Wondered what was wrong with you – sometimes.. but i am quite pleased with myself
Wish you were a prince/princess – do princesses have to be really ladylike? if that's the case, then it will be a NO
Liked someone who was taken – secretly.. no!
Shaved your head – oh.. i dont like being hairLESS
Been in love – am i too pity if i say NO? luckily.. it's a yes, although we didnt live happily ever after like the happy ending
Used chopsticks – ya.. i am a chinese!
Sang in the mirror to yourself – it's weird but.. ok, it's a yes
Favorite Flower – erm.. the little yellow flowers sawying beside the road
Candy – ya, i love candies.. those can be bought from famous amos
Song - songs? it will be a long long list if i list them all out. soothing melody will do
Scent - i dont use perfumes.. so i prefer body lotion scent.. smell likes a baby
Movies - comedy! tragic movies are often too sad..
Singer – Olivia, perhaps?
Junk food – chocolates!
Website – blogger.com or blogspot.com? haha!
Lotion - johnson and johnson's body lotion? haha!
Animal – human!
Ever cried over someone – oh.. i am a cry baby..
Do you think you're attractive – can you guys answer this for me?
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose – Little Red Riding Hood? haha!
Do you play any sports – cardio dance, the one and only..

III

The rules:-Link to your tagger and post these rules.- List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.

*i love listening to certain melody until i fall asleep at nites
*i can sleep with the lights on
*books are part of my life
*i have a ring on my left index finger, a gift form my mum
*i love blogging (oww.. everyone knows that..)
*i am constantly changing, and, growing
*i hope i can learn how to play piano somedays in the future, anyone willing to teach me?
*i am scared of drastic changes

can i break the rules? i will leave the tagging-people part for those who would like to hav fun playing this!

so.. do you get to know me better? i hope so..

n lastly,

HAPPY CHAP GOH MEI!

Monday, February 18

放心吧,都会过去的

嗵、嗵、嗵…
从来没有感觉过
自己的心跳声那么实在
那么清晰
一声一声的
响亮得快令我窒息

原来被烈酒灌醉时
心跳仍是扑通扑通的
神志不清之时
至少那颗跳动的心
仍清醒依旧

一整日不断袭击而来的忐忑
几乎将我淹没
看不见握不着一线生机

挣扎着
浮沉着
断断续续地

没什么
只因为今日是极其重要的历史性一刻
很庆幸的
我是盎着笑脸写下这对我来说
意义重大的一刻
老天保庇啊

猜着了吗?
没错
承蒙老天眷顾
惹人爱的老天爷
不负我忘得如了我愿
过了五关斩了六将
我考试终于过关啦!
虽然这并不是什么天大喜事
虽然我真的只是低空掠过
不过却足以让我高兴一整天了

好在之前一点点的努力没有白费
好在爸妈的每滴血汗没被我糟蹋
好在我无需再费神熬通宵开夜车
好在爸妈不必压抑着失望安慰我

不过看得出
老妈似乎对我过低的分数有些介怀
早知如此就该直接把分数那环免了

最近身边些许朋友好像心情不太晴朗
总有些恼人的阴霾阴魂不散地痴缠着
我坚信一切的不顺心
都会随着一阵深夜的巴山雨
或是明朝的第一缕耀眼晨曦
化成袅袅轻烟坎坎而升

你们呆滞的目光
失去神采的牵强笑脸
歪着脑袋闷闷不乐心事重重
在一旁的我却只能呆呆地看着
就连一句话也不敢哼
深怕踩到地雷一发不可收拾

老妈说今年我犯太岁冲白虎
原来也会殃及我身边的你们噢?
好吧
去庙里拜拜打小人时我会带多双拖鞋
敲得咯咯响
把你们生活中的不速之客
统统打进天牢
永不超身

小人们
给我

Friday, February 15

听我说,好吗?

浪漫恬逸的气氛
眷顾了天下有情人
昨早翻了翻报纸
原来一年里有十二个情人节噢
每个月的十四日
天啊这么多
不再是单身贵族的朋友们
岂不要破产了
不过只要找到个身心契合的伴
淡如开水的每一天
也可以是情人节
况且送礼物
并不一定非得选在情人节送啊
同意不?

老妈问我究竟有何打算

什么时候给她钓个女婿
安啦
你女儿我如意算盘正打得响
现在真正让我蹙眉的
是课业
只要一想到
得孤身前往不熟悉的地方
不自觉地就很沮丧很烦躁
是很向往一个人独立的新生活
毕竟娇花在温室困久了
也会缺碳窒息继而凋零
也许倚赖久了成了习惯
凡事自己来就成了空谈
很漫长啊
第一次这么提不起劲
得尽快恢复再次朝气蓬勃
活蹦乱跳始终比较适合我

老爸老妈

安静听我说
我知道从小你们都把我捧在手心上
小心翼翼怕我这颗水晶球一着地就碎
不过再宝贝再不舍
我始终得成长
当然
之中难免少不了碰碰撞撞
就算脸青鼻肿青一块紫一块
那也是历练是过程
一切都会过去的别担心
我知道一向来
我的鲁莽粗心让你挂心了
不过好歹我也是个识拨算盘的人
所以任何事情我会尝试心里有数
你不是老说我长不大吗
现在就是能让我证明自己的时候
总有一天我会骄傲地对你和爸说
‘爹地妈咪,我现在很勇敢,会自己煎鱼了噢’
被滚油烫一下真的没关系
只要会自己找药敷就行了
唐三藏一般细皮嫩肉的其实也没什么不好
只要心里自有想法
知道什么时候该念金箍咒
什么时候静下心打坐
那我就是万物不侵的金刚身了
蜘蛛精啊白骨精啊什么的我不怕
欠揍的妖魔鬼怪也休想揽上我身

张小娴说

再狠毒恶劣的人
也有纯真无邪的时候
那就是当他们熟睡时
那张洁如天使的睡容
背影亦是如此
谁都不曾
也无法见一见自己的背影
就算用摄像机将背影定格
那也不是最初最真实的影
连自己的背影都未曾见过
又何能耗尽心思将之伪装

真是这样的吗

若真是如此
能不能在我抉择之前
让我端详你的睡容
好好看看你的背影
也许出乎意料的
我会枉故一切一头栽进去

真的

我是说真的

Tuesday, February 12

花语

忽地
漫天的黄花飞舞
翩翩黄瓣憩息在
湿答答带雨的颊

上扬的嘴角
悄悄告诉他
不要你找我
只要你陪我
看着一瞬间
好久好久不会忘

想和你置身花海
看着一眼即逝
所谓的永远

回味
那一霎那
单纯的感动着
为那份淡淡的真
荡气回肠地震撼着

花叶摇曳的影子
清清地掩了
欲迈入初秋的步伐

要不
你送我一场花雨
把我唤醒

Monday, February 11

我…回来了!

终于回来了
好久好久都没更新了
对经常挂在部落格上的我而言
可真是刷新纪录了
呵呵

大家的新年都过得怎样啊
吃喝玩乐
再加上长辈们厚厚的红封袋
今年肯定是丰收年啊
今年的红包
稍微的缩水了
不不不
更正确的应该是说
缩水了很多
是不是经济滑下坡的关系
有点小伤心
不过没关系啦
红包的最主要意义在于红彤彤的袋子
象征着长辈们希望后辈吉祥如意的那份心意

最近吃得也不算多
因为每家每户招待的糕点都差不多
加上原本已收敛的小肚腩有开始发难了
所以我张嘴也跟着收敛不少

新年前几天逛了逛新年夜市集
兜售的物品和往年差不多
随意逛一圈就走人了
今年的烟花
也不比往年璀璨
不过仰头望着火花点缀的夜空
心里还是被浓浓的新年气氛塞得水泄不通

这是Amelia
妮子怀疑她是我失散多年的妹妹
怎么说呢
她某些方面跟我还蛮相像的
同样是傻大姐的大剌剌
以往我俩的头发都是往外翘得很猛
她脸上有些许雀斑
却掩盖不了她可爱的本性
不晓得这女孩几时才会破蛹而出
成为小女人

吉隆在鱼圆家飚歌的‘盛况’
右边那个正是圆溜溜的
鱼圆
鱼圆别忘了你答应我的事啊
我知道你人最好了
哈哈

今年我家只接一只狮
当然是支持耗了我六载年华的母校啦
每一年都会封一封红包
附送一箱饮品
兄弟们
你们有福啦
至少还有像我这样的好心人
在大热天为你们献上甘霖
不过今年晴空不知为了躲谁
近日都不见天影
辛苦你们啦

摆个吉字
大年讨个好兆头
现在这个吉
已沦为蚂蚁们的猎物了
尸首异处

今年最特别的
应该是这小俩口了
从大年初一开始
两人就约好一起穿上情侣装
鸳鸯佳偶
羡煞旁人


对着镜头笑一笑嘛
女主角应摄影师要
把脸撇过去
哈哈

自拍达人
竟然旁若无人地好脸起来
镜头爆了
落地开花

阿宝
拜年时竟然睡着了
他真的哪儿都能睡
真服了爱猫的他

这是妮子从出江湖的第一篇
太久没写了
有些生疏了

祝大家新年行大运
工作的事业亨通
读书的学业猛进
最重要是身体健康
天天快乐常保微笑


笑一个
(^_^)