Wednesday, June 30

其实,我想说的不止这些。

人生里绝对不会被夺走的:回忆、知识、与吃下肚的东西。


在面子书看到的一句话,所以这一趟出游,吃了好多好多。

该吃不该吃的,想都不想都咽下了,把肚皮鼓得圆圆一粒。
不知道为什么,可就是那饱足感不会停留很久,刚刚吃的午餐不消一下子就没啦。
没啦还没关系,最要命的是我那像是嗜血的 beast 的食量,这真的很让人紧张。


吃饱喝足了,就乖乖地休息,殊不知其实这样暴食暴饮也是很耗力气的。

我把体力都化成了满足食欲需要的 chakra,一触即发。
哈哈哈,没错,最近都在看火影,后遗症是也。


钟意 Kakashi 的吊儿郎当,还有 Rock Lee
的离谱浓眉。

总是偏执地认为,浓眉的男生都很好看,那是我的审美观。


没有照片的出游,是因为我懒惰,什么事情我都好像提不起劲。除了 FIFA

没有每一场都紧紧追着,我偏心,只看我心血来潮想看的。
就连巴西葡萄牙难得的碰头,我也只乖乖看了三十分钟不到。


因为其余的时间我很忙,眼睛不能左边看荧幕右边看食物。又是吃的,法。


没关系,斗牛士都把小葡送回家啦,球场上他们不经意流露的小孩子气我咯咯咯地一个人笑了。

我很开心地睡着啦,听着很 unpolished 的音乐。


When you listen to this record, you can hear naivety, innocence,
inexperience and the wide-eyed imaginings of a wishful thinker.
It's both light and dark, optimistic and melancholy.
- Adam Young


Brielle
,我听这一个。


那天,载着很不情愿的小妹去补习中心。

我不要去补习我不要去补习我不要去补习,就这样她一直重复着。
从家里到补习中心,直到她乖乖下车,我一路都没说话。


如果这样念念念就能得到一切想要的,世界上不快乐的人就不会这么多。我想。

抑或,他们不快乐,是因为学不会知足。

Tuesday, June 22

学习

为了他,我愿意学习。


 我学着如何切菜下厨、看书弹琴、看足球动作片、轻声细语

温婉可爱兼撒娇、不该说话时安静、试着一个人
他看其他女生的时候不随便吃醋、不随便发脾气、婉拒优秀男生的示好
他不在的时候勇敢,证明一个人也行、爱屋及乌
少些八卦因为他不喜欢我多嘴、打毛衣领巾、听他爱听的歌、等
翻食谱猜他喜欢吃什么、不在自我中心、先道歉、不随便流泪
把他不喜欢可是却是我的 favourite 的迷你裙收起来
开始收藏他的只语片言、因为小事物而微笑、珍惜美好
晚上回家他没报平安睡不着的习惯、拜拜默念的时候多念一个人的名字
聊他的话题有他的思维、和他的朋友打交道、有些秘密要藏起来
宵夜的快熟面要多加两粒蛋、手机要 24-7 开着
我的负面情绪要用笑笑带过、你的失落我希望你说给我听
早起身不赖床因为我是你的闹钟、不念不吵不唠叨
游览你爱游览的网站、逛你爱逛的书店、希望跟上你的脚步。


我在学习,慢慢地开始学会了好多好多。

可是啊,你的脚步已经不再为我停驻,你开始走开了,远远的。


我纳闷了,开始哭了。我努力地自我增值,为什么却留不住你啊。

我以为让自己变得更好,希望会让你惊艳并珍惜。


原来,我的过度改变让你无法适从。
 


这是过分的讨好,不是迁就,你说。

你没有错,你只是努力为我变更好,我很感激啊,你说。


没关系,我没有不见什么啊,只是丢了一些自己,我说。

不要担心我啊,我很好没事,我说。


傻瓜,我只是喜欢原来的你啊。你笑了。我也一起笑了。


原来,一段感情不需要这么多的改变来持续的。

因为你就是那个愿意照单全收接纳我所有不足的笨蛋啊。

Friday, June 18

E for? english and Emi!

finally, no more constipation. my oh my, exams are always as suffocating.
that's why it's so important to have fun when you're not supposed to :D
like to count your shit before flushing it away?


and i think i am very good in it. too good in fact.
*self-applause sankiu


the last paper was a pain in the ass, not that the others weren't.

it cost me not only the i-can-no-longer-feel-it-right hand and the anxiety i never felt before,
but also the disastrous headache right after i left the exam hall.
yea right. right at the time when i should cheer and chant.


ditch my notes? i'm adventurous in nature in some ways perhaps.

i give away my notes when i don't even know whether my answer deserves merely just a pass.
just get my fingers crossed and believe in miracles.
but then again, this ain't something you can get through just by praying hard enough.
a cold hard fact and i am well aware of it. the pisces isn't that dreamy after all.
she knows when to stay and when to leave. and what's the best for her, sometimes.


Me likes You but You loves Her and so destined that Her happens to love You too.

and since spain lost so Me is not gonna tell You how Me feels anymore.
You, babai. oh, say hi to the lucky Her.


how many actually understand when they read this? not many.

so appreciate the few who feel the same deeply, and who care.


i-don't-give-a-damn is not my way of being cool. i am not cool anyway.

being made of flesh and blood, i feel everything.
that's why i am not an amphibian or some reptiles.


the emotional crush inside is fatal. but telling yourself not to cry is more than enough to kill.

some told me, Darling, it's alright to cry.
we don't have to be that tough every time.
aah not that i'm tough, i just don't want to laugh at myself when i look back at the old times.
when i get older enough to sneer at the old immature self.


who doesn't grow anyway? ok skip, this is way too gloomy.


my breakie-break started when the clock struck 1815 on the 16th!

so home-sweet-home soon babeh! yet the worst part of going home is to pack.
and i seriously dislike this! :/ how can you pack an elephant in a mousetrap?
eew. packing seriously sucks. ok, travel lightly then. i hope.


a day out with the girls today. good food good companion.

where when and what are not the issues. it's the who that matters most.
i'm so gonna mish this bunch of little brats when i'm home.
will you girls mish me the same? 
ok keep your mouth shut if you're saying nah -_-


oh, got something FOR FREE from one of the girls!
presenting, the nerdie-nerd! drum roll pleash wtf



p.s. i'm not glamorous enough so you don't have to steal this
*as if someone's going to wtf*



somehow i don't look like me. oh, meet Emi.

another half of mine, and my spokesperson whenever i'm away on a holiday.
she is sweet and she doesn't drift away to some fantasies as much as i do.


instead of casillas my love, she likes zinedine zidane. oh, count kaka in also.

she's the one who taught me how to wtf too. great job, Emi. *thumbs up


oh yeah enough of crappy-crap, it's time to hit the bed!

another eight-in-the morning-great tomorrow to pack, clean and wash.
yea as long as i am still awake, today is still yesterday
and it will only be tomorrow when i wake up the next morning wtf


good night world and Lio is on the way. i love you :)

Sunday, June 13

one two three,木头人!

十一点不知道多少分,我才听见从八点开始喧哗的闹钟。
迟了快四个小时,完蛋。


翻一翻每个早上惯例的
facebook 报纸了解近况。哇,1对1平手。

可怜的 Green 被好多人逐一 foul-word 了一餐接一餐。是失误,不是故意的吧?
冷静冷静,都还没 16 强咧。


即使没得看现场直播,什么时候进球什么时候失足什么时候 free kick penalty kick,

从面子书面sn还有简讯,四通八达我都略知一二。
还可以想象一个两个眼睛盯着那颗足球转的专注神情,有一些为了让自己好过一些还把笔记带在身边。


0233,GOAL!chapter 7,page 47。

0430,draw。chapter 7,还是 page 47。


这样真的好咩?-.-


没关系啦,现在我的笔记也是被晾在一旁。刚刚发现了新大陆,手痒按了按。

结果?我忘记了还被裹在毛巾里从湿答答到干瘪瘪的头发。
糟糕咯,这两天注定 bad hair 了。自己找来的。


粉红粉红,我不是粉红粉丝,只是纯粹觉得这个色调很顺眼。

细心一些就会发现,我一不小心,又嵌入青青灰灰的元素啦。


等考完试之后,再作调整。现在,没空~


最近最火热的不是天气,是世界杯。

我不是什么疯狂球迷,就连那几个 club 我也只知道一部分。
manchester united, chelsea, liverpool, arsenal, real madrid.


我只知道,有好些帅哥,都穿 jersey 7号。lucky seven 是也。

那天分心在学校翻了翻足球特辑,哇!眼前一亮~


天啊,西班牙斗牛士。



感谢
Google 提供的照片~瓦德法。



有没有被摄住了?虽然女孩子都说他很老不小了。

啊没关系啦,年龄真的不是问题,哈哈哈。


Iker Casillas Fern
andez,生日 520,今年都 29 咯。
我相信,我们之间 32 厘米的距离是可以克服的~
♥♥♥

↑↑

考试症候群,花痴真的只是兼职,只是偶尔打合法散工,挣外快。


好啦,乖乖念书啦,要。明天都已经开跑了我却一点紧张感都没有,哎哟喂。

昨天女孩子 W 带了一壶薏米给我,她知道最近我火气大。
吃醋的女孩子 A,哼你!给我闪边边!
W 不甘示弱,哎哟,你都已经找到人照顾你了,Emi 还没有找到吼!


哇~窝心呐~薏米我都喝光光咯~


阿咯阿咯。真的不行了,进度很慢很慢。找了点吃的就要引擎开动,元气一百!

星期三之后,就可以一睹斗牛士们英姿飒爽的风采啦,欧耶~
时隔多年,花痴依旧泛滥。面子书面sn 的大头照我都换成了
C for? Casillas,  for a month.


雨刚刚停,好不识相,最天经地义的午休小睡的理由就这样没啦。

鸡蛋糕,今天凌晨上的暗紫指甲油不知道什么时候糊了。


没关系,等下中场休息的时候,抹上珊瑚紫。

Thursday, June 10

june.

老妈说,你很久没有 update 了吼。

是有原因的啊,我并没有偷懒。

忙考试,忙想吃什么,忙打算什么时候把衣服丢进洗衣机。
很多东西都要想一想才能够行动啊。
不可以再吊儿郎当的,做什么事情都凭一时冲动。

虽然那样的冲动有时很浪漫,很心醉。

哎哟,又来啦,典型的双鱼爱做梦。

很糟糕,越长越大,却没有越大越勤劳。

很难想象,以前可以一下子 handle 十个科目的我,是怎样走过来的。

现在才不过两张 paper,我就呱哩呱叫的。真糟糕,惨不忍睹。

所以我说,shit happens whenever exam is visiting。

Paranoid.

最近听什么?想一想啊。噢,有这个。



很 country,总觉得 Lady Antebellum 女主音的声音

很像那个许多男生心目中的女神,Taylor。

哈咯,久违的句号。我们好久不见啦。

难怪我总觉得,文章整体怪怪的。

好啦,我要当个好孩子,看看能撑到什么时候。